The small things in life…

Taking a step back and appreciating the smaller things in life today at work, when most of the time it all feels so caotic. I work I childcare…

‘The children laughed as they kicked their way through the thick layer of autum leaves that covered the ground. One child knelt down and picked up a handful of leaves. She curiosity looked at them before taking a step back and throwing the leaves up above her. The wind blew the leaves around above her. It was cold though she didnt seem to mind. Several leaves fell straight down over her head. She laughed with excitement. The other children copied and pritty soon it was raining leaves all over the yard. Such a simple thing as an autumn leaf, in this case many of them brings so much joy into a childs life.’
Stay tuned- J

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Dear Diary- Forever Learning

Dear Diary,

It was my second day back at work today and I feel like I never left. Whilst leading up to going back to work I felt mixed emotions of excitement, anxiety, apprehension and determination, now I am left feeling drained. Its my own fault really. 

I approached day one with my to do list, my “this is how I will respond when they say this and do that”… with the expectation to get it all done asap knowing full well this was not possible in the time frame I had given myself. 

People in my workplace often compliment me on my work which is great. Appreciation goes along way. 

Others though make suggests of how I can improve what I do and am doing. This is when my walls go up and I get defensive. Sensitive even. In my head when they are saying “perhaps you can do this/try this”, all I am really hearing is “your doing it all wrong”. Its a warped perception really. My warped perception. 

After taking a step back, sleeping on it and having a good hard think about it though I realise that the people making these suggestions are right. It doesn’t mean I am wrong, they are clearly showing me another way. They are just trying to help me. Support me. The sooner I accept this fact the better off I will be.

Lifes all about helping people and allowing them the opportunity to help you/ to teach you to yeah? I dont know about you but I am forever learning!!

Stay tuned- J

Phillip Island- Penguin Parade

Though unfortunately i do not have photos to share with you of my recent penguin parade experience at Phillip Island, i thought i would share some of my memories from my visit.

Some friends and i arrived at the penguin centre just before sunset, to buy our tickets and secure our front row seats in the concrete seating just inches away from the beach where the tide was due to come in. 

Almost exactly on 6 o’clock it grew darker and colder. The spokes person who represented the penguin conservation team spent a good half hour squeezing late comers in between other people who had been seated for much longer. Eventually it seemed he was satisfied with our seating arrangements and proceeded to give a talk about the peguins.

This was the last colany of penguins on the island, which is sad really as there use to be over ten different colanies throughout Phillip Isand. Every single night of the year hundreds of penguins make the long journey home to their families and burrows in the time frame of roughly 6pm- midnight. Given their size this would be a massive adventure and use of energy for them every day, as it requires them to swim all the way back to shore, woddle up the sand dunes, weave through the stalky grass and finally arrive at their burrows/nests.

We as the audience to this impressive show were asked to put phones and cameras away as to not startle the penguins with the flash, remain quiet and simply observe. For some in the audience this was too much to ask, you always get one or two people that cross the barriers and try and be the hero that get a photo or almost touch a penguin. The ruine it for everyone else who does the right thing really..

Back to the penguins. Some of them turned the whole thing into a game. They knew we were there, though most didn’t seem to mind. This was a regular occurance for them. They retreated back into the water, woddled around in the sand, floated in on the waves, before making their final journey home. Other penguins who came in solo stood about until others arrived and they made there way up the sand dunes together. They really seemed to enjoy the compamy of one another. 

Looking out into the distance, into the water you could make out the groups of penguins coming in together. Dark patches of water which at first glance could easily be mistaken for clumps of sea weed, though if you looked carefully enough you could make out little heads bopping up and down in the water. My friends brother referred to them as “bop bops”.

An hour past and we were ushered into the the main building of the facility where if you paid that extra $$$ you had the privilege of been able to view some penguins through a tunnel in their burrows under ground. This time around i opted not to participate in this encounter, though the walk back up the boardwalk made up for it as you were able to observe the penguins moving about and interacting with one another even closer than we were able to on the beach. They make a really unique sound. 

Overall the whole experience was great, definitely something i would recommend as worth while if your ever in Phillip Island.

Stay tuned- J

Ten years in the making….

It has been a while since i last blogged. Here is why…

I have had some time off work to persue my love and interest of writing. A story that i wrote when i was 16 years old has stuck with me. Those who were privileged enough to be able to read the hand written copy of it back in 2007, have encouraged me to persue my dream of getting it published. 

This all said and done, editing, typing and preparing something i wrote 10 years ago is proving to be a challenge. More so than i’d expected. I am going to need more than the week id initially given myself to ‘fine tune’ it. What i feel i am struggling with the most is my 16 year old and now 26 year old perception of the world around me. I now know a lot more about descriptive writing, grammar and so much more about the different ways to captivate your audience via your writing. 

There are characters who were originally introduced into my story who no longer seem necessar. I am no longer connected to them they way i am with my main characters Danielle and Miles. Removing a characters whole exsitance from my story however leaves me feeling somewhat guilty and empty though. I have tried to keep it as my 16 year old self orginally intended, but lets face it. I have changed in the last 10 years dramatically as a result of my lifes experiences, of course in one way or another this will alter my story. I have even stopped reading all my books at present, just as to not risk been influenced by other authors and their various stiles of writing.

I know i will get this story published eventually, whether it be independently or through a publishing company and when this happens i know whatever the end product i will love it and proudly promote it as my own. 

I then intend to start working on a collaboration of many of my short stories written both in my younger days and at present. I hope to share these with others. Though my life isnt bad, my books and story writing provides me with that escape from reality whether it be for 5 minutes or 3 hours. I wish to share this experience with others.

I hope that you have enjoyed this blog. If you have had similar experiences with writing, preparing a manuscript or publishing a story i invite you to comment below. I would love to hear what you found worked and didn’t work and what made the whole process run more smoothly.

Stay Tuned- J